We are officially in the stretch of our last two weeks which brings me to a whole range of different emotions. First off I feel incredibly anxious to go home. The time is growing shorter here and I am like okay, time to pack up and go. Truly feeling that sense of “Alberta Bound;” needing me some Canadian. But in addition to this I am feeling the sadness that will come in leaving too. I don’t want to leave the fresh tropical fruit (mango, guava mmm), my beautiful sisters/teammates, or the sun (which has been hiding behind the rain for a while now, sad face). Lastly, I have been feeling pressure. Pressure to see all of Bangla fall down. Pressure to have dates with all the bar girls I have met and tell them ALL about Jesus. Pressure in doing and seeing EVERYTHING in two weeks.
God has been speaking into that pressure: yes, He has called me to Thailand for these two months to show His love, but it doesn’t end with me. Nor did it start with me. He has been sending His army here for some years now and He has been calling at Thailand’s heart. And when my feet step onto that plane it isn’t over either. Teams will follow after me and pick up where we left off chopping away at the mountain, and He will continue to speak into the hearts and dreams of the Thai people. He is already victorious over this war.
At the beginning of this trip and more and more as time goes on God has been really showing me that He is the Great Shepherd. He brought me to Thailand to aide in the bringing back of His sheep, but he doesn’t need me to call them home. He has got this. He is taking care of everything and we really don’t need to do anything. It has been such an honor to have His call and follow His leading here. It has been such an honor to do His work here in Thailand. But it is not all on me. It is not my responsibility, nor the responsibility of my team, to save all of Bangla. He is going to do that in His time. In his methods. The Great Shepherd has allowed us to be a part of this victory, but it is not our victory. We don’t have two weeks to turn all of our visions into reality—He has His timing to bring His visions into truth.
