In 60 days…my God is SO BIG.

I love that my God has no time constraints. Literally none. I was just sitting on my bed talking with my team leader, Katie, and she asked me what last year looked like for me. I told her that last year I didn’t have a relationship with Jesus. I told her that last year I was lying to my parents telling them I was going to church, when really I hadn’t stepped foot in a church in forever. I told her that last year I was finding my worth in boys. I told her that last year I was still angry with God for the things that had happened in my past. And then I told her about the Dominican. I told her about how God orchestrated that trip SO perfectly. I told her that it only took NINE days for God to completely change my whole world. Nine days to completely reverse the way I had been living my life since my freshman year of high school. MY GOD IS SO BIG.
 
Flash forward to this trip. 60 days. That’s it. I remember saying it to people for the first time and being overwhelmed at how long it seemed. But it’s only 60 days. I wrote a blog a while ago saying that if God could change everything in 9 days…like he did in the Dominican, I can only imagine what He’s going to do in 60…and now I’m going to tell you.
 
In 60 days, God has taught me SO much about surrender.  He’s taught me that without surrendering EVERYTHING to Him, we won’t ever be able to really grow. He’s taught me that when we surrender our lives and our hopes and our dreams and our pains to Him, He will bless us so big we won’t even know what to do with it all. MY GOD IS SO BIG.
 
In 60 days, He has shown me how relentless He is. We sing this song during worship here that says, “You won’t relent until You, have it all…my heart is Yours” and it is SO TRUE. He literally won’t stop pursuing you and growing you until He has every piece of you. And that doesn’t mean it’s going to be easy. Sometimes it’s hard, but once we give in and let him have it all, it is SO worth it. Until you’re ready though, He is relentless. He loves us that much. MY GOD IS SO BIG.
 
In 60 days, He has shown me that I am PURE again. My past is messy and ugly and OVER. Last summer when I gave my life to Christ for real, my past was sealed up and I was made pure and whole again. And what really blows my mind, is that not only am I pure in the eyes of Christ, but He has made a man for me that will see me that way too. MY GOD IS SO BIG.
 
In 60 days, God has given me a taste of what my future looks like…and let me tell you, it is AWESOME. When I think about the fact that God chose ME, someone who ran from Him for so long, to do the things that He has planned, it totally blows my mind. God is going to do big things through me and I am so blessed and beyond excited to get to be His vessel. MY GOD IS SO BIG.
 
In 60 days, God has shown me the importance of just one. He literally has me living in the parables of the lost…. and He’s showing me how far He will go to just get ONE bar girl. ONE tourist. ONE child. He sent 24 girls here to chase after the hope of seeing one girl walk out of the bars and find Christ, and He let that hope be fulfilled. More than one girl has accepted Christ since we have been here, and the crazy thing about it is that God didn’t NEED to use ANY of us to get them…He just chose to. MY GOD IS SO BIG.
 
In all honesty, I don’t have enough space to tell you how much God is done in these 60 days. He has grown me more than I thought possible. He has given me a family in the people that I’ve done life with on this trip. He has given me glimpses of my future. He has shown me I have more strength than I know. He has shown me how far I’ve come. He has changed my life all over again. He has given me so much more than I deserve. MY GOD IS SO BIG.
 
Love you all
Living in pursuit of Him,
Rach