As I was praying and asking the Lord what to write about, He reminded me of a song that He had used to speak VERY clearly to me earlier this week. The song is: Only To Be Yours by Meredith Andrews.
Okay, change of pace…
When I had started this blog a few minutes ago, I intended to share the song lyrics with you and then explain what I was learning through it, but God had different plans. I started writing and He said, “Allison, I want you to REALLY meditate on that song before you write anything.”
So I turned the music in my headphones up, closed my eyes, and turned ALL of my attention toward this song. I ended up crying out this song to the Lord and then He said, “How about instead of writing a ‘normal blog,’ you write me a letter telling me how you want this song to resonate in your life.” “Okay Lord, whatever you say…”
Father,
Thank you so much for constantly speaking to me and showing me areas where I need to grow. You never cease to amaze me and humble me as pride continues to creep into my life.
Thank you for never giving up on me, for never losing hope with me, and for always having grace with me as I sin time and time again.
I don’t know why You love me so much, but I thank you that You do. I don’t know why You still want me, but I thank you that You do. I don’t know why You keep forgiving me — even though You know that I will mess up and turn my back on You again — but I thank you that You do.
Lord, we both know know that You have been calling me to evaluate my heart daily and be real about what I am placing above You and loving more than You, and I ask You to continually help me with that.
I keep thinking that there is something better than You, but I know there isn’t. I keep trying to hold onto my family, friends, and life in Michigan, but none of these things even come close to comparing to You. I keep holding onto comfort, but it doesn’t even come close to comparing to You.
YOU ARE MORE THAN ENOUGH, yet I so often forget that.
Lord, I lay these things at Your feet. I am laying it all down.
Lord, take whatever You will. It is all Yours.
Lord, help me to be content with You and YOU ALONE.
Lord, please continue to show me Your Greatness so that I will be always reminded of HOW GOOD I have it.
I want to be ONLY Yours. Take away whatever You need to take away in order for You to be all that I need.
I know it will be hard and it will really suck sometimes because my flesh desires comfort so much, but I want YOU to be all that I need. Lord, please strip me of all that is standing in the way of that and give me the strength to lean on YOU.
In your Son’s holy name I come to you, Lord, and lay my heart in Your hands,
Amen.
