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Awake My Soul

How fickle my heart and how woozy my eyes…

    Packing for Thailand, I couldn’t have been more excited. I was ready. I had all the necessities and was prepared for my summer of adventure. The only thing I was not looking forward to was training camp. I thought it was going to be a waste of time when we could be out and that we were losing time to work at the SHE house (more of that later). I was pleased with what I learned we would be doing and the organization that we were partnering up with, so most of my fears had been put to ease. Arriving at camp, I was quickly forming relationships with my wonderful teammates, but still yearning to jump on the closest plane and get the heck out of Tennessee.

And now my heart stumbles on things I don’t know, my weakness I feel I must finally show…

   My faith has taken me on a journey this past year, and having these few days to refocused and regroup has been incredibly rewarding. Critically thinking through my past few months, seeing what falsities I held to be true and the mistakes I had made, caused me to think maybe I wasn’t prepared to be on this trip with such strong women. But being surrounded with my teammates and the others who are fully immersed in the Word and in the promises of the Lord has been healing and replenishing. Some activities were out of my comfort range and I struggled with things I had not yet experienced before. But the words spoken over me rang true to the very prayers I had been praying throughout the past few weeks. My faith has been shaken in the past few days, refocusing me on the things I know to be true and the things I know to be a challenge for me as I enter into these next two months. I am ready to admit where I need help and I am thankful for the small preparation time we had to form bonds as a team and mentally, physically and spiritually sharpen ourselves for our adventure ahead. 

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