My constant prayer for this trip has been from the song “Hosanna” by Hillsong, the line where it says “break my heart for what breaks yours.” I don’t want to go out into these bars, and be angry, or let satan get in my mind. I want my heart to break for these people, and it has broken, for the women who are dancing, and are so stuck in greed, and wanting to send money home, that they won’t get a different job because this one pays better, for the girls who are stuck in the industry, but can’t get out because they were bought by a man. My heart breaks for the men in the bars, who are so lost, and so caught up in lust, that they are missing the one true thing that could make them happy, Jesus Christ. Mark 4: 30-32 compares a mustard seed to the Kingdom of God, how it is one of the smallest seeds in the earth, but when it is sown, it grows up to be a large tree, with huge branches. Matthew 17:20, compares it to your faith, how if you have the faith of a mustard seed, you could move a mountain from one spot to another. As I was reading these things I realized, I’m this mustard seed, I may be small, and what I have to say may not always be perfect, but with Christ, I’m going to grow and be this big beautiful thing. I’m going to be the light in such a dark place, and I have never been as excited as I am to ask God, to break my heart for what breaks his. I can’t wait to see what else God has planned for me during the next three months, and to see how much I’m going to grow.
God is so good and so faithful.
