Before I start this tale of God moving let me first say that one I never sleep with my headphones in because i end up singing along instead of sleeping. Now that that is out of the way let me tell how God showed up…
2am Monday morning I was woken up by something and was frustrated when I didn’t see the reason of me waking from my slumber and then I heard the song coming through my ear buds and my jaw dropped. I had never heard this song before that early morning (which for those that know me well know that it is not abnormal for me to have music on my phone that I have never heard). The song was “Dancing with Tears in my Eyes” by Keisha (please no judgment for having some of her music in my possession). For those that are not familiar with it here are the lyrics.
Here we go, welcome to my funeral
Without you, I don't even have a pulse
All alone, it's dark and cold
With every move I die
Here I go, this is my confessional
A lost cause, nobody can save my soul
I am so delusional
With every move I die
I have destroyed our love, it's gone
Payback is sick, it's all my fault
I'm dancing with tears in my eyes
Just fighting to get through the night
I'm losing it (losing it, losing it)
With every move I die
I'm faded, I'm broken inside
I've wasted, the love of my life
I'm losing it (losing it, losing it)
With every move I die
When did I become such a hypocrite?
Double life, lies that you caught me in
Trust me, I'm paying for it
With every move I die
On the floor, I'm just a zombie
Who I am is not who I want to be
I'm such a tragedy
With every move I die
I have destroyed my life, it's gone
Payback is sick, it's all my fault
I'm dancing with tears in my eyes
Just fighting to get through the night
I'm losing it (losing it, losing it)
With every move I die
I'm faded, I'm broken inside
I've wasted, the love of my life
I'm losing it (losing it, losing it)
With every move I die
Ohh, this is it, Now you're really gone this time
Ohh, never once thought I'd be in pieces left behind
I'm dancing with tears in my eyes
Just fighting to get through the night
I'm losing it (losing it, losing it)
With every move I die
I'm faded, I'm broken inside
I've wasted, the love of my life
I'm losing it (losing it, losing it)
With every move I die
As I was listening to these lyrics my heart broke. I literally saw the face of one of these Thai women, we were sitting at a bar and she was sobbing as she was telling me these lyrics like they were her thoughts and how she genuinely felt once all the lies and facades and language barrier had faded away.
With this I was given a new fire and passion for the pain of these women and it made me all the more excited to go out to minister tonight on Bangla Road….God has got amazing things in store…..I don’t know what they look like but freedom is coming!
