March 16, 2011
Exactly two months since the start of this epic journey, I can honestly say that I am NOT the woman that I was whenever I flew in to Atlanta for training camp. God has completely transformed me inside and out. I know who I am now. I am the daughter of a King, I am beautiful, I am worthy, I am holy, I am a saint, God chose ME to be part of His army.
Whenever I was baptized 3 years ago, it was out of obligation and out of fear that if I wasn’t baptized, that I wouldn’t make it into heaven. Basically, it was for purely selfish reasons. I wanted to make sure my spot in heaven was secured and I was going to do every possible thing that I could do to make sure that if I died, I would be going up instead of down. I’m not saying that it is a bad thing; I’m just saying that my heart was in the wrong place.
Today, my baptism meant so much more. As Kelly said before we did it, it is an outward expression of my walk with God. It is me saying that He has changed me, He has transformed me completely and I want the world to know! This time, I didn’t get baptized out of obligation, I did it because I wanted it. It means that I am never going back to how it was before. I am never going to be bound by those chains that I was before. The enemy has no hold on me. He has no hold on my thoughts, emotions, or actions because I am not of this world. I follow someone greater, someone way more powerful than he could ever hope to be. This means that I am a new creation, the person I was in the past is no more. From now on, there is no looking back, just looking up to the love of my Father shining down on me.
