It's Monday afternoon and we just got back from our first exposure and prayer walk on Bangla Road. Waking up this morning a new wave of the fear that I have been struggling with hit again. We have been somewhat sitting stagnant in this waiting process for the past few days…don’t get me wrong these have been an amazing few days after the dragging chaos of three days of travel but the reality of what we are walking into has been on the distant horizon until today.
We started our prayer walk simply by walking down the left side of the road and asked God to expose things and to lead us in our prayers and to show us things that we need to be praying for and etc. As soon as we set foot on the road it took everything within me to keep from bursting into tears at the look of lostness in peoples’ eyes and seeing signs like “husband daycare” just stoked an infuriated fire in me that I’ve never experienced before. It was like I was so antsy to do something that I couldn’t stop moving. We switched sides and walked down the right sides and were showed where not to go and so on and I was relieved to have a little bit of a break from the waterworks and I am sure my lower lip was relieved to not have to be bitten anymore to hold back the tears.
As we were walking back down Bangla to catch our bus home one of the bars was playing the song “Where is the Love” by the Black Eyed Peas and all over again my heart broke! These people I’m sure had no idea the words of the song they were playing it was simply a ploy to get in more customers but the irony for lack of a better word was devastating.
We go out tonight for the first time as a group tonight and I am terrified but excited to see how God is going to continue to use us in ways that only he can conjure up.
P.S.
On a completely unrelated note, after we had our walk we stopped at a McDonalds’ kiosk at the mall and got Coke Icees with vanilla soft serve on top…. essentially a coke float but better than any coke float I have ever had…. oh my America…. you don’t know what you are missing!
