Anyone that knows me can tell you that I am not one to show emotions and that I tend to be a loner. I have a response for every comment or question, except for the ones that require me to use my own emotions.
In everything from interacting with my team to reading a book, God has revealed to me that this tendency of mine is nothing more than pure stupidity and arrogance, coming from the Enemy and not from my God that loves me so deeply. This idea began to truly sink into my thick skull while I was reading Trauma: The Pain That Stays by Robert Hicks. At one point in the book, Hicks states:
“To scream is to come face-to-face with our own humanity and personhood. To face ourselves is fundamentally a theological confrontation. As men and women made in the image of God, our emotions are reminders that we reflect something of God’s feelings when we feel. Our rage at the inhumanness of a disaster is a reminder of how God may also rage at injustice, being a moral being. Not to rage at the severity of life is to function in a dehumanized way. It is to be less human and less than God made us.”
After reading this passage, it hit me. It is okay to be angry at the horrors in this world. It is okay to be discouraged. It is okay to be weak. God will use our pain, and our weaknesses, for His glory. There is nothing more beautiful than that.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10 states:
“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
Those that are truly weak are strong and those that are truly strong are weak. Therefore, I dare you to follow Paul’s example. I dare you to not put up a fight when God reveals his plan for you. I dare you to be a wimp for the glory of God.
