Kicking off the the training wheels….

           Kicking off the training wheels and moving into your big kid bike…this is a exciting experience for every little kid right? I mean it means that you aren’t a little kid anymore and you are becoming a big kid! That’s always a great day…but can also be a terrifying one. That’s where this kid is at the moment. My daddy has shown me the big kid bike and I’ve watched him take off the training wheels and I see the hill in my driveway that looks like a mountain as I am sitting on top of it on my big kid two wheeler about to get that initial push….
 
            As many of you know and a few of you may not I recently graduated from college in Texas with my Associates and Bachelors. My entire college career the plan has been to graduate and then continue on to get my Masters and lucky for me my college has a great Counseling program so I could just stay there and continue to build the life I love so much. Sounds like a great plan right? Well I’d like to think I am a great planner. As much of a planner as I am God has been showing me how to surrender my plans up to him these past few years…or so I thought.
 
            Due to the course that I plan to study at my University I am required to take the GRE (Graduate Readiness Exam) before I start classes. This surely wasn’t a problem since I would have a month to take it after this adventure in Thailand has come to a close.  Through a little field research it came to my attention that I had missed the deadline of the exam and that I was not able to take the test, which means that I could not start my Masters, which means I could not move back to Texas…. remember that terrifying moment when you notice that you are sitting at the top of the hill and realize that you only have two wheels instead of four? Yeah welcome to my moment.
 
            Now I know for some of you the gravity of this moment may not be hitting home as much as it has me the past few days. Let me attempt to explain it a little clearer. For the past few years the plan for my life has been simple and set out and coming along quite nicely and been the future life that I was looking forward to during my time here in Thailand and in one short moment that was all gone. This means that I will no longer be starting grad school in August but instead hopefully in January, this also means that I no longer need a job or place to stay in Texas because I will be living in Alabama until probably January so the scene and cast of my life are completely changing.
 
            Please do not get me wrong the fact that this means that I will get to live with my family and spend time with them and get a break from school has me ecstatic and happy but this has revealed a lot of things. It shows me that although I thought that God had complete control over my life I had apparently only released the parts that I saw him aligning with my plan and that I have absolutely no clue what my life looks for the next 5 months besides the fact that as far as I know it will be spent in Alabama with my family and friends there. This is God showing me that he is taking off the training wheels…for real this time.
           
            As those who are somewhat involved in my life (I’m assuming that you are or you wouldn’t be reading this really long blog) I am asking for prayer. It may be selfish but I know that God has great things for me in this next chapter of life but I also know I can freak out, so please be praying for God’s constant peace beyond my own understanding.
           
            So here I am. I am at the top of the mountain, on my big kid two-wheeler, getting ready to get my first push to start my crazy ride down the hill. I’m scared and nervous because I have no idea how this ride will be but I am comforted and at peace because I can see my daddy at the bottom of the hill with arms wide open waiting for me to come to him and he embrace me after my exciting trek. So I think I am ready for the push…here it goes.