God reveals himself and His will during the most unexpected times…
One thing He’s been teaching me is to accept my femininity and to find strength in the femininity. He’s also already revealed that I’m called back to America and will have a family, but I didn’t want to accept it because it wasn’t part of my plan. I was going to be a missionary in a far off country for awhile alone and happy. Maybe married if God blessed me in that way, but no family. I’ve seen what havoc they can wreak.
WELL, I went to see Spiderman today in the theater! Woohoo! I finally get to sit in ac for a few hours with my mind turned off, no thinking. Well, when you let your defenses down, that’s when God decides to strike and wreck your life for His will. I cried during at least half of the movie. During almost every scene about family I cried. Not teared up, but tears are actually rolling down my cheek. God spoke and said, “you WILL know the pain of having a family, but it will be more love than you could EVER have imagined” and he filled me with this overwhelming love that I shouldn’t understand or feel yet. A protective, almost motherly love I guess. I mean, I’m really not sure. I still didn’t really want to believe it, but there was no way I could ignore God now. Later in the movie he also told me that I will be the mother of many nations (possibly adopting, or my children could be missionaries or I could work with a youth or childrens group?) It was the strangest thing. Geese, God, I just wanted to enjoy a movie and you decide to intervene and have a life changing encounter. lol thanks
