That other country… that’s where I’m going

I just got done reading Mere Christianity for probably the fourth time. And it keeps on teaching me.  In her forward to the book, Kathleen Norris tells us that this particular book…   "asks us to recognize that the great religious struggle is not fought on a spectacular battleground, but within the ordinary human heart, when every morning we awake and feel the pressures of the day crowding in on us, and we must decide what sort of immortals we wish to be."   That statement: What sort of immortal do we wish to be.  That gets me.   I want to be a woman...

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Press the pause button to put on some band aids

Playing monkey in the middle is a great game, I love playing it with kids and with my brothers. But when you step into reality and get thrown into the middle without a choice it damages you. For so long I entered into a position with family that caused me to believe that it was up to me to fix every shattered piece. I didn't allow God to take over, to have His way. Trust was stolen and over the last few years I thought I had been healed from things that have been taken place in my life. I was trying to please my family, make us whole again. It's my job . But what I didn't know...

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The Real Underlying Flaw

  You know when people ask you, “If you could change one thing about yourself what would that be?” Well I found that one thing! I don’t truly believe God is good! WHAT!!!   Why can I not accept the one truest thing that God is? Why can I know of Gods goodness not really believe it with all my heart? I need to get the bottom of this mystery and when I do figure this out I want this revelation to be so EPIC that I will never be able to deny that GOD IS GOOD!   I know God has so many plans for me and He will revel them in His time but until then I want to...

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The Real Underlying Flaw

  You know when people ask you, “If you could change one thing about yourself what would that be?” Well I found that one thing! I don’t truly believe God is good! WHAT!!!   Why can I not accept the one truest thing that God is? Why can I know of Gods goodness not really believe it with all my heart? I need to get the bottom of this mystery and when I do figure this out I want this revelation to be so EPIC that I will never be able to deny that GOD IS GOOD!   I know God has so many plans for me and He will revel them in His time but until then I want to...

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No Strings Attached

I am a terrible driver, I genuinely cannot remember the last time I was on time for one of my college exams, I hate spicy food, and I cannot pronounce the word “quesadilla” correctly to save my life. However, the one thing I thought I had finally figured out by now is how to be a loving person. Turns out, I was mistaken. Being a loving person looks differently to everyone. To me, I always believed “loving others” meant encouraging others to follow their dreams, being there for my friends when they’re in need, and being polite to strangers. It wasn’t until...

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God > Ambivalence

I am trying. I am trying to understand the Buddhists. But the fact is the Buddhists do not know themselves.   They pray, they bow, they kneel before these statues. And yet they claim it is not worship. They sing praise to Buddha,“O Blessed One, Shakyamuni Buddha,? Precious treasury of compassion, ?Bestower of supreme inner peace, You, who love all beings without exception,? Are the source of happiness and goodness;? And you guide us to the liberating path.” And yet they claim he is not a god. They ask and pray to their gods for help. And yet they claim they take no refuge in...

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