For the longest time I’ve always wanted to go bungee jumping. To be able to face that fear of falling and jump. The thought of it always made me so excited. And now I can say I’ve finally gone. But I didn’t think it would have such symbolism in my life as it has. Almost all my life I’ve struggled with abandonment.  I needed a plan. I needed control. And I held onto far too many things. Abandoning myself would mean letting go of those things and that’s not something I was willing to do. No matter how many times God kept telling me to just trust Him fully the...

At training camp, many different leaders encouraged our team to seek out the small victories in the day to day. The little things are going to be a big deal, they said. This is a hard ministry. In the time you are there, you don't always get to see much fruit. That doesn't mean that things are changing or that God isn't moving. He is. It just takes time.   Well, I am finding they were right.    As much as I want every bar girl I spend time with to immediately realize and believe in their worth and leave their job right away, that's not how it works. It's...

Jesus talks to me through butterflies.  I’m psyched. Last week I struggled with doubts that I was hearing from God.  Other girls on my team get these awesome visions and hear him speaking to them audibly, and, I don’t know, I often feel like I try really hard to listen, but it’s never that dramatic.  He often talks to me through memorized scripture and song lyrics, and sometimes pictures, but those are few and far between.  Anyway, the other night we were supposed to be praying that God would reveal something to us for one of our team members, whose name...

I don’t know how to write this blog.  I’ve been processing all day, and I still don’t know how to put into words what I saw and felt last night. We’ve been out in the bars several times already, at least 4, but the reality of what I was seeing didn’t really hit me until last night.  Coming on this trip I begged God to show me just a little glimpse of His heart and His pain, and I repeated that prayer before we went out. That’s a dangerous stinking prayer. It only took a few minutes for us to sense that something was different on Bangla Road. ...

        Our house is near the Bang wad dam here in Kathu and today for those of us that were left at the house we went prayer walking to the dam. As silly and frivolous as this may seem it is something that is desperately needed.             You see there is a shrine on the side of the mountain overlooking the dam. For years the young people were sent here to have sex because of the favor and fertility powers that this shrine had. About 6 months ago they started sending teams to do prayer walks on the dam. People...

What an amazing first week in Phuket. Our team has had extreme highs and ultimate lows, but as always God prevails. After three nights out on Bangla, I'm obviously still just a rookie but a rookie with a stronger passion and a broken heart. Every night that I go out, I constantly ask God to remind me that the men that are out here are just as lost in sin as the women that seduce them.    Sex was made to be something beautiful, a gift from God meant for a husband and his bride. And look what man has turned it into, a money-driven industry meant for instant satisfaction and guiltless...