For as long as I can remember, I have been asking God to reveal His love and power to me. And I felt like I was searching around for it aimlessly and without results that truly changed me inside. I felt like most of the time I was almost there, but could never quite reach it.
A few nights ago, one of my teammates asked one of the most convicting questions I’ve heard in a long time:
Do I trust God’s love to be enough?
Yikes.
I wanted to say yes, but I realized that I hadn’t completely surrendered to the Father’s love for me. It’s super easy for me to believe in His unconditional love for others and see how He is working in their lives, but seeing that in my own life was another thing.
Last night that changed for me. Chains were broken. I was truly set free.
I was made vulnerable and stripped bare by the Lord in front of my whole team during our feedback time, and His love hit me. Hard.
Like the uncontrollable crying, tear and snot covered, swollen face kind of hard. But He unfailingly wrapped me up in His overwhelmingly good and sweet love. So much so, that I physically felt different.
Even hours later, I feel it.
He showed me that He truly knows me. Like, KNOWS ME knows me, just by speaking a few encouraging and knowing words through someone else at just the right time.
I’m not even sure what exactly happened inside me, but it honestly doesn’t really matter to me at this point. All I know is God broke chains that were keeping me from fully knowing his love, and that’s enough.
He is so beautiful. And His love is so real and so good.
