Author: Adventures

I dare you to be a wimp

Anyone that knows me can tell you that I am not one to show emotions and that I tend to be a loner. I have a response for every comment or question, except for the ones that require me to use my own emotions. In everything from interacting with my team to reading a book, God has revealed to me that this tendency of mine is nothing more than pure stupidity and arrogance, coming from the Enemy and not from my God that loves me so deeply. This idea began to truly sink into my thick skull while I was reading Trauma: The Pain That Stays by Robert Hicks. At one point in the book, Hicks states:...

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The Real Underlying Flaw

  You know when people ask you, “If you could change one thing about yourself what would that be?” Well I found that one thing! I don’t truly believe God is good! WHAT!!!   Why can I not accept the one truest thing that God is? Why can I know of Gods goodness not really believe it with all my heart? I need to get the bottom of this mystery and when I do figure this out I want this revelation to be so EPIC that I will never be able to deny that GOD IS GOOD!   I know God has so many plans for me and He will revel them in His time but until then I want to...

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The Real Underlying Flaw

  You know when people ask you, “If you could change one thing about yourself what would that be?” Well I found that one thing! I don’t truly believe God is good! WHAT!!!   Why can I not accept the one truest thing that God is? Why can I know of Gods goodness not really believe it with all my heart? I need to get the bottom of this mystery and when I do figure this out I want this revelation to be so EPIC that I will never be able to deny that GOD IS GOOD!   I know God has so many plans for me and He will revel them in His time but until then I want to...

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I have a thing for older men.

Yes it’s true. I have a thing for older men. Not in a creepy way, but just in a, “they’ve always had a very special place in my heart” kind of way. Maybe it’s because I have been blessed with wonderful grandpas. Maybe it’s because whenever I talk to older men, they always pull out their wallets and show me pictures of their beautiful wives and I can tell how very much in love they are after years of marriage. I don’t know exactly it is, but it has hit me hard here with the older men in the bars. At first my love for these men caught me off guard...

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Press the pause button to put on some band aids

Playing monkey in the middle is a great game, I love playing it with kids and with my brothers. But when you step into reality and get thrown into the middle without a choice it damages you. For so long I entered into a position with family that caused me to believe that it was up to me to fix every shattered piece. I didn't allow God to take over, to have His way. Trust was stolen and over the last few years I thought I had been healed from things that have been taken place in my life. I was trying to please my family, make us whole again. It's my job . But what I didn't...

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No Strings Attached

I am a terrible driver, I genuinely cannot remember the last time I was on time for one of my college exams, I hate spicy food, and I cannot pronounce the word “quesadilla” correctly to save my life. However, the one thing I thought I had finally figured out by now is how to be a loving person. Turns out, I was mistaken. Being a loving person looks differently to everyone. To me, I always believed “loving others” meant encouraging others to follow their dreams, being there for my friends when they’re in need, and being polite to strangers. It wasn’t until...

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