Author: Adventures

karaoke and goodbyes.

Good byes are never easy. Yesterday I had to say goodbye to *Jill, A girl I have posted about earlier in the trip. Austen and I had planned a beach date with her, our last date; I was going in with high expectations… I wanted it to be perfect, like a girls day in the movies, filled with laughter, maybe get a better tan, eat crap food, tell stories, and just be girls. But when we got to the mall to meet up with her, and walked to the beach it was raining… and she had a customer with her. My heart was completely broken. Jill* always told us, I get paid a certain amount of money...

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PLEASE READ! And PRAY please!!!

We just got home from Bangla Road and tonight something amazing happened with my friend i wrote about last, Am! I went to see her and she was telling me how much she hated her job… which she hasnt told me ever. When she told me about her job I begged her to just leave with me right then and there but she said she had to finish her night. I promised her a job tomorrow! i said AM if you leave i promise you i can give you a job tomorrow! In the end we decided that tomorrow at 11 a.m. I am going to pick her up in Patong to come back to S.H.E. to talk about having a new job here. ...

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Fingernail Fellowship

Sometimes trying to be a reflection of Christ takes sacrifices. Case in point: right now I have pink nails. Bright pink. As in almost glow-in-the-dark. Maybe that isn't what sacrifice looks like to you, but I hate pink. And I paint my nails about once every year or two. But today our friends Noi and Deuan came over to SHE to teach us how to make som tam (papaya salad), and afterward we painted nails on the floor in the kitchen. So now my fingernails are florescent pink. All of them. But just to have that time to hang out with our friends was worth it.   So the cook here is named...

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Confessions of a Hypocrite

Preparing for this trip, I shared what I was going to be doing with a lot of people. Upon arriving here, I have found a cool ministry engaging with tourists to which I am able to share why we are here as well. Usually the response that I receive has some shred of this attitude:   “Wow… Good for you.”   I sometimes get the impression that, based on their words, body language, and tone, a lot of people think I must be someone especially moral or talented to be doing what I’m doing—befriending prostitutes in Thailand. My explanation usually elicits a few...

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Vulnerability, Worth, and Freedom.

Knowing I have less than two weeks with these girls has been hard for me, Satan has been attacking my worth, personally, in my Bangla team, and in the entire team. It’s easier for me to shut down, and push people away then to be left behind or forgotten. I was addicted to self-mutilation; I let Satan control me through that, attacking my self-worth daily, but I don't want to go back to that. Being vulnerable is a hard thing for me, sharing what I’m feeling makes me feel weak, not good enough. It’s scary. It doesn’t matter if what I am saying affects the...

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